In awe

I have to confess
I am in total awe
Almost admiration
Of the way you manage to get up and leave
So easily

By the way you effortlessly say goodbye
And never even phone again
As if the existence of me in your life
Was simply
Arbitrary

I know we call each other friends
If that is what would make you
Feel better about yourself
Or maybe simply for my own sake
As if any of us believe the label

And I know I can call you now
If I wanted to

But say what?

That I sometimes miss you so much I can’t breathe

It simply wouldn’t do

Because by this afternoon
You would have forgotten that you’ve even heard my voice today

And I’d once again simply be
A fleeting thought
In the back of your mind